It was exactly one year ago I lost the love of my life .. Barbara Jean Pentz .. I was in France working and I got a text from my cousin. I tried to act normal at dinner with my friends, I had a show later that night in sardinia .. I ended up...

It was exactly one year ago I lost the love of my life .. Barbara Jean Pentz .. I was in France working and I got a text from my cousin. I tried to act normal at dinner with my friends, I had a show later that night in sardinia .. I ended up playing fours hours until close and played the whole times trying to not to bust out in tears.. I stayed awake and got a flight to florida in the morning to be with my family . I spent a day with my dad mowing a few acres of grass by the river . I realized how therapeutic lawn mowing is that day.. it’s probably cheaper than a psychiatrist I wouldn’t know . ❤️🤷🏼‍♂️.. I said bye to mother a week later and one thing I remember was how mature my son was . he was dressed in a suit with his blue hair and held my hand at the church- he visited my moms body before we brought her to the mausoleum because he wanted to say good bye . i remember I drove up from miami that day and I saw a girl riding a zebra (maybe it was a horse ) at a redlight . I thought about how perfect and weird florida was and how much I loved that my mother raise me in this crazy place . momma was just one of eight siblings. she grew up poor by todays standards but always had her faith in christ and her family to keep strong. she loved her brothers and sisters so much .. she saw them leave this earth one by one and then her oldest daughter passed away last summer .. it was so hard for my mom to lose my Amy (my sister).. Mom was my biggest fan and always protected me . she taught me what real unconditional love can be. it might have been the greatest lesson I learned in my life and i’m still learning from her lessons every day .. I love you Mom and I miss you 🩵

the first pic is from my mom and dads wedding I think we just out of high school and it’s the basement of the church because why are the fuse boxes by the cake? 👰‍♀️🩵